Connie Pinkert

Connie Pinkert

 
July 14 2015

Looking Forward with Hope

Connie Pinkert

I have been dreaming for many years, and now at age 68, I know I must act. I have been so blessed to have grown children and grandchildren, and have cooked many many meals for them with lots of love. I have also been blessed with good health. However, with all of these kids grown and going on about their lives, and my energy not so great anymore, I keep thinking about all the dreams and wishes I have had for so many years that are slowly fading away from me.

Mostly they’ve faded, I believe, because of finances, and some because of loss of energy. I can’t seem to get motivated quite as easily as I once could. All I really want is to be able to take my kids and grandkids to the beach and to the river and enjoy being together and laughing and doing all the things we all love to do.

I am feeling stuck and hopeless in my quest. I am afraid of regretting these unfulfilled dreams when it is really too late. But I don’t want to waste time by being unhappy about the things I am unable to do. I feel I have lost my laughter and positive outlook by worrying about unfulfilled dreams. I have to shake this thought and I must live for now and be thankful and happy for what I have and what I can do.

I am not alone. All these beautiful family members are around me. I have to find that person who is inside of me and somehow bring her out.

I would love to have your prayers and encouragement to help me live happily with what I do have, and not dwell on what I have wanted to do for so long. I need to let it go and be happy. I want no regrets later.

My strong, smart, beautiful mother, who has now been gone for 14 years, once told me (at the age of 85), “Connie, you’d better have fun while you can.” I understand that statement, and I want to do these things. I’m just not sure how.

If there are others out there like me, and I’m sure there are, let’s pick ourselves up and do the best we can. Nevergive up. In the end, we can at least say we did the best we can with what we had to work with. Life really is short, isn’t it?

Let’s just get with it, heads up, full steam ahead, work on our attitude and get moving. Hell, yeah! Let’s start laughing and quit worrying so much.

Ready! Set! GO!

Best wishes to us all! I will be pulling for you! Let’s start now!